It takes two…

It takes two…

And on my baby-steps path to being a solo act, I’m starting a duo with my pal Lee. You may know him from such past MusicalSchizo musical experiences as “The Extractors” and “Roman Holiday”, and if you know him from there, you know he’s a drummer and singer.

But if you really knew him, you’d know he’s a guitarist, too! So Lee and I are starting a crazy duo that will have us playing various instruments (he guitar, percussion (cajon, etc), and singing…me guitar, bass, maybe some foot percussion and singing). We will have a relatively atypical but still very pop-oriented song selection (choosing songs people don’t tend to play). And we will bring the acoustic rock.

It should be a lot of fun once we get it off the ground, and I’m going to exploit some of my new contacts to book shows for this group in addition to the shows I’m planning on trying to get for the full Roman Holiday (because it’s been too damn long since that band’s been playing). Maybe since this is 2/3rds of Roman Holiday, we can call it “Tooth Herds” or something punny like that. I guess we’ll see.

GIG ALERT: ATM (Audio Time Machine) is playing on April 23rd and May 14th. So that’s nice. 🙂

And that’s the update. Have a happy St. Patrick’s Day!
TMS

Life Changes Through Life Changes

Life Changes Through Life Changes

So in my last post I talked about being divorced. I know that a lot of great art comes from pain, and I think that some of my best songs arrived via the “pain train”, but there’s also a lot of utter shit that comes from drawing inspiration in something so emotional. I can think back on at least a few songs that were overly sentimental or really heavy-handed dealing with tough emotions. I consider that a problem I have – wielding the pain as more of a sledgehammer rather than a gentle brush. I think the time and perspective that comes from being out of the bad part of the situation (while things are still falling apart) can really work toward expressing something interesting if you’re brave enough to revisit it after the fact with a little perspective.

Of course, I’m nowhere near that phase yet – this is all pretty new and raw. I’m just exploring the concept of making adult friends who might turn into more special friends. Putting myself out there and actually dating for the first time in my life, really…because every relationship I’ve had has been one of convenience – we were in close proximity, we liked each other, things happened…boom – relationship. I’m trying to break this pattern and figure out who the heck I am, because honestly, I have no idea. Removed from being “Heather’s husband”, I’m not really sure who I am. I know that my physical changes (lost 20 lbs, grew about 20 lbs of hair) have garnered a higher level of female attention than I expected, but I’m honestly still in mourning of my life as I lived it for thirteen-plus years.

It’s been a running theme on this blog about me never actually getting my solo acoustic act off the ground, and one thing that has come from the therapy and other things I’ve been through the past few years is the discovery/acceptance that I have serious self-worth issues, mostly because I don’t ever give myself the credit I deserve. Not as a person, producer, performer, musician, or songwriter. Not even as a father sometimes (that one’s improved a lot, even with my departure from the home…I know I’m a good dad, and I do my best to be there for them as much as I can under the circumstances.) I think perhaps the reason the acoustic thing has never happened isn’t just laziness, it’s also a subconscious self-hate campaign my psyche has been playing on me for years – that I shouldn’t book it because why would I subject people to my singing and playing? What makes me think I can entertain people with just my voice and guitar.

Well, I’ve finally accepted that it’s a shitty way to live, bowing down to some imaginary judgment that hasn’t even happened. The fact is, when I’m emotionally clear and healthy, I know I’m a better singer/guitarist/entertainer than most people who do the solo acoustic thing out there. Sadly, I’m just not usually emotionally clear or healthy. As that improves, so will my confidence. But so far that hasn’t really happened, so I’ve decided it’s time to fake it until I make it.

The first faux-confidence display will happen this coming Wednesday, February 12th, when I join my friends Paul and Greg for a gig with our little ragtag trio, “Audio Time Machine” (ATM). I think it’s going to be a really fun show, and I know that I have a bunch of people who have said they are coming to hang out, which is awesome. Friendly audiences are always confidence-boosters. And right now, my sad little brain needs all the help it can get.

But back to the songwriting. It’s weird – it’s been so long since I really wrote a SONG that I’ve almost forgotten how to do it. I’ve been collecting a lot of riffs and musical ideas over the past few years, but nothing seems to every really coalesce into something complete. It’s scatterbrained and seems relatively indicative of how I’ve lived my musical life for the past few years – just taking things as they come with no set plan or organization. This sort of informality can be good to reduce stress levels, but all it does is render everything you do as sort of half-assed. I think that’s why no clear SONGS have come together. And I’m sure that’s part of the reason that in my performing musician life there haven’t been any Roman Holiday gigs since last June. Audio Time Machine is very informal so that takes basically no effort, but we go for long stretches without playing shows. And my sad little brain needs to be playing shows. It’s a really important part of my happiness as a human walking the planet.

So it’s time for me to organize this part of my life a little bit and really make it happen. Get my new solo website together (brianvsings.com) instead of just having it point here (which it does for now). Get my songlist together and start really tightening up my performances of the songs – make them full of feeling, personal, relatable, and very memorable for the audiences. Maybe have some stones and see if I can launch my little act by performing for my day job co-workers in our facility’s live music lounge for happy hour or something. There’s a bunch of built-in fans who like to get drunk after work! (Heck, they like to get drunk AT work sometimes…)

So hold me to it, people. If you see that I haven’t made major moves on this stuff in the next few months, give me crap about it. I deserve it!

Thanks for reading and peace be the journey!
TMS

So I’ve been absent for a long time, and there’s a decent reason…

So I’ve been absent for a long time, and there’s a decent reason…

I got divorced.

Yup. Your faithful servant is now The SINGLE Musical Schizo. No worries, though, it’s very amicable and the ex and I get along splendidly. One of the things that this might actually open up is that I’ll have a little bit more time to focus on musical pursuits, but so far I haven’t really done that. In fact, I haven’t played a show since October. It’s driving me CRAZY! The good news is that I have a show on February 12th (Stompin’ Grounds Grill on Anderson Mill Rd in Austin), so that little drought will come to an end.

Speaking of droughts, I haven’t written a song in a terribly long time. The emotions of what I’ve been through the past couple of years are way too intense to try and turn into art just yet, but I’m hoping with a little perspective and distance that it will give me some good material.

One thing that is interesting to me is the concept of being a gigging performer that isn’t married. I’ve never experienced that. I’m wondering what sort of extracurricular fun that will bring. I’m not one of those musicians who started playing to impress girls – in fact, I’ve never understood that, because I’ve always done music for music – but there’s a distinct possibility that girls, or better yet, women, will be impressed with my musical performance. I already look more the part of “the guy in the band” now that I’ve grown out my hair (It’s almost as long as it’s ever been, actually), so that might bring some fodder for future blog posts, too.

I’m going to be a better, more consistent blogger this year, and really turn this into a place for good commentary and perspective on music from a part-time professional musician.

Thanks for everything, and peace be the journey!
TMS

A couple of gigs on the horizon…and a new “Bathroom Schizo” song on the way

A couple of gigs on the horizon…and a new “Bathroom Schizo” song on the way

I have two shows in Austin coming up – one with a new, sort of ragtag power trio with the guitarist from Capital Suspects that has our maiden voyage on June 19th at Stompin’ Grounds up north, and the other filling in with Capital Suspects at Baby A’s Stonelake on Saturday June 22nd. I’m excited to get out and play.

Also, I’ll be singing a song suggested by a good friend of mine as my next solo acoustic video. Not exactly sure if it’ll be shot in the friendly confines of the Spongebob bathroom, but it should be pretty good. It’s actually a good song for my voice, and I’ve always loved the message in it. That should be done within the next few days…

So that’s that in the Land Of The Musical Schizo. I hope everything’s looking good in your neck of the woods…
TMS

Footnote: I never posted this because I wasn’t around, but here is the link to the video for the aforementioned song:

HOOF: Huffing One’s Own Flatus

HOOF: Huffing One’s Own Flatus

Sometimes it’s nice to go back and see what you’ve done with fresh eyes – to take stock in your personal accomplishments. Some people take it too far and live in the narcissistic world of HOOF, like The Artist Formerly Known As The Artist Formerly Known As Prince, but for the rest of us, I think it’s healthy to waft a little of our own brand up toward our middle face holes and check it out. This post will feature that from me. Samples of my contributions to the Harmony Central Forums – specifically the “Backstage With The Band” forum. I’m going to put in a few posts I thought were good not only for the topic we were discussing, but as general information. So here we go…

January 10, 2008:

This is probably going to piss some people off, but here’s my comment:
I think if you can’t muster up the passion to make a bad song rock, you’re not doing your job as a performer. You’re half-assed.

I admit, it’s really hard to do, and it takes some serious acting at times, but suck it up.

Case in point: our band plays “I Love Rock & Roll” – one of my least favorite songs EVER – and I pour my heart into that piece of shit every time I sing it, because I am a performer, and I am there to DELIVER the song. I usually announce it as “this is my favorite song ever recorded – on opposite day!” Which usually draws a few chuckles until we get it going and then they flock to the dance floor.

I did the same thing when we’d do Mustang Sally, which I agree is a much better song when Wilson Pickett does it. I made sure that no one rushed that bitch when we played it, because it takes all of the fun and the funk out of that song.

Anyway, if you’re in a cover band, and especially if you’re the lead singer, you have to sell every song, because that’s the only way the audience is coming along for the ride.

Back on topic, though, I’d say a best bet for your band (having listened to your original stuff) would be to focus on the fun stuff from the mid to late-60s – oldies that have always worked for the various bands I’ve been in are:
Twist and Shout
Get Ready (pretty much all Motown, actually)
Mustang Sally (and most Soul, too)
I’m A Believer
Wooly Bully
Louie Louie

Classic rock songs that always worked:
Roadhouse Blues
Magic Carpet Ride
Sweet Home Alabama
Gimme Three Steps (Skynyrd usually works pretty well)
I Want You To Want Me
Rock & Roll All Nite
Hard To Handle usually gets people up, too.
All Right Now
American Woman

We’d play Stray Cats stuff (Rock This Town, especially) because it sounded old and people would swing dance to it (which was funny) – Crazy Little Thing Called Love is like that, too.

There’s so much 60s-70s stuff out there that works. It just comes down to finding what you enjoy playing and tailoring the “winners” to that.

80s stuff seems to be what goes over best in the clubs my band plays, though. It’s that shifting bar demographic…and the fact that the Austin audiences tend to be a little younger than where I used to live (Jacksonville).

I would imagine it’s pretty mixed up there in Williamsport.

March 19, 2008 (Tips for playing bass and singing):

As a bassist who’s also a lead singer, but has done a ton of backing vocals in the various bands where I wasn’t lead singer, I can say that the most important thing I learned is to just keep doing it until you get it. It takes time.

I never thought I’d be able to sing the lead parts on “Super Freak”, “All Star”, “Higher Ground”, “This Love”, or “Superstition” and play the bass parts, but I can (some more accurately than others, of course).

There are some songs I simply can’t do, though, and those have been set aside (“Dance Dance”, “I Believe In A Thing Called Love”)

Here’s how I’ve done it in the past:
I get the bass line down and practice it until it’s second-nature.
Then, I listen intently to the vocal parts (in this case, backing) and where they come in. I listen to the song and practice those parts independently.
Then I play along with the song and sing the backing vocals when they’re there and see how much it affects what I’m doing on the bass.
Once I realize what phrases cause problems, I figure out whether I need to adjust what I’m playing or just muscle through it.
Once I decide what I’m going to do, I just play it over and over until it works together.

Band rehearsals help…and it helps a TON to have a singer who phrases things correctly and consistently so you can more easily be spot on with the harmonies and have it not confuse you or surprise you when you’re trying to pat your head and rub your belly at the same time (play and sing).

Best of luck. Hope that helps!

February 2, 2009 (on the topic of using music stands on stage):

I hear tons of whining from both pro and anti people here.

To which I say…whining is not rock and roll. So you can all shut the fuck up.

Rock and roll is about doing what you fucking want to do, and fuck anyone else.

If that means you have a stand or a teleprompter, so fucking be it.

If that means you hate stands and teleprompters, so fucking be it.

Everyone’s entitled to call bullshit on each other.

But whining about what other people do isn’t very rock and roll.

Wait, no, yes it is…but it’s that fruity, puffy rock and roll who cares about whether your leather jacket looks right or you like the right bands.

Fashion rock…which isn’t about the music.

Fucking pathetic. 🙂

Pathetic like me (because I use a stand). 😉

April 24, 2009 (on the topic of jealous spouses):

This reminds me of a story. I was playing a gig at a place called Hurricane Hattie’s (some of the old-school Jacksonville folks might remember it), and I was talking to a very sweet, nice, and quite beautiful young lady who was there with her boyfriend. She was saying how great she thought I was and kind of fawning over me. Apparently that was way too much for the guy (who wasn’t even drunk). He yelled, “Dammit, Crystal, why don’t just just fuck him right here!” I politely pointed to my wedding ring, said, “Sorry, not interested, no offense…” and that diffused the situation. The guy looked like a complete asshole in front of a large portion of the people standing on the deck, because he was LOUD. And I got two things out of it: 1. A little validation for being good (and attractive, apparently) 2. A funny story that still gives me a chuckle when I think about it. BTW, on topic: My wife is very, very cool. Actually, all our wives are. They trust us. What a concept.

June 12, 2009 (a thread I started called “Why did you get into music?”):

I often have conversations with other musicians about how/why they got started, and I’ve seen in interviews many famous musicians talk about why they started doing music, and it’s almost universally answered “to impress girls” – which is incredibly cliche, but amazing to me how frequently it’s their motivation.I must be weird, because I got into music because I loved music. I didn’t care if girls liked me more if I could play guitar or sing – that thought NEVER EVEN CROSSED MY MIND! Music was always fascinating to me, even when I was little. Just the mechanics of making any musical instrument work just impressed me as much as LEGO. And I LOVED Lego.

But back to my initial motivations: I feel like an alien when I talk to other guys about it or hear famous, successful people talk about it, but I figured I’d pose the question here to see if there are any other weirdos brave enough to put themselves out there.

I got into music to make music. No desire to be famous, no desire to get girls, no desire to do anything but learn how to make things work and create some interesting noise. I know, I’m both weird and a big pussy, because even as perverted as I’ve always been, I never saw music as a path to female attention.

Then this part was in response to a guy who posted that anyone who said they didn’t get into music for girls was a liar:

This isn’t a direct shot at you, because I don’t know your motives, but I think only those who don’t really understand what it’s like for music to be a “calling” could say this without being facetious. I can’t NOT do music. It has NEVER had anything to do with gaining the interest of women, and especially not now that I’m married. I’m not even all that comfortable singing to the women in the crowd, which hurts me as a frontman for my band.

I still to this day have never consciously used music to win someone’s favor – ever. I did write one song for my wife as a birthday present, but I had already won her favor, so it was just expressing how much I appreciated our life together. (Yeah, I’m a sap sometimes)

Truthfully (and anyone who knew me then will attest to this) I was never even comfortable whipping out the acoustic at parties in college, when it was a guarantee that you’d get some serious female attention for it.

It’s almost like music is mine, and you can like what I do if you like – that’s great – but I really don’t give two shits whether it’ll make you like me more. In fact, I don’t want it to make you like me more. I’d rather be judged based on other things.

June 23, 2009 (on what I take to gigs as a backup):

I’ve gigged as both a bassist and guitarist, and I always take: – At least one extra guitar or bass, almost always with no fancy electronics (meaning a regular bass or guitar if I’ve got the Variax or an active bass). – An extra powered speaker that I almost never use and that stays in the car in the event of total failure. – I use a POD X3 Live as my main rig, so I have a PODxt bean with all the model packs installed as backup (so it backs up guitar AND bass easily and takes up almost no space). – extra cables of every type I use, and extra cable adapters of many types, as well as extra AC adapters for the Line 6 stuff – at least one extra set of strings for bass and guitar (usually D’Addario XLs because they’re cheap and they’re in those plastic bags that keep them fresh a long time) I almost never break strings. – a pile of extra 9v batteries for my wirelesses – an SM57 and a few Samson-branded SM58-type mics in case of catastrophe or if we need an extra mic (or one that drunk people will be handling). I often throw an extra boom mic stand in the car as well. You never know… I’ve considered upgrading to an X3 bean as a backup, but I’m not sure if I’m going to bother, since the X3 has never failed me, and I don’t want to spend $400 on something that’s just going to sit in my bin full of cables.

July 15, 2009 (on my wireless headset microphone – I just think this is funny):

My headset is the Crocs of microphones – works well, feels good, looks completely dorky.

And now I’m tired of myself. If you got this far, I love you more than air. And not the HOOF kind.
TMS

TRIUMPH!

TRIUMPH!

And I’m not talking about the band, no matter how awesome they are. Saturday night’s gig with Roman Holiday was a triumph. It was a fun show, everything worked (well, once we swapped out the power amp on the mains), we all played well, and the trainwrecks were minimal, which is amazing considering we literally played together ONCE since our October gig. Playing with Ned and Lee is like breathing. I love those guys. I sang well (for the most part – Don’t Stop Believin’ and Sweet Child O’ Mine were a little “raga” at times), I played bass REALLY well, and we were a machine. Plus we had awesome people come out and see us, and amazingly, one of the people had been friends at different times in different cities with two of the others and somehow managed to see each of them for the first time in decades. It was a freaky reunion! But I’m so happy that it happened on such a great night.

I’ve placed an ad on Craigslist to try and finally get an original band off the ground. I decided I want to go for something like Fountains Of Wayne – power pop with a sort of modern edge. I’ve had three good responses. One guy has stepped back after hearing my music and saying we’re not a fit, which is fine. Still waiting to hear back from the other two. If for whatever reason I don’t manage to meet anyone to get the band going, I’ll figure out a different strategy and maybe book a few shows and hire some mercenaries.

I still need to get my solo acoustic thing off the ground…just have to finalize a song list, record some new demos more indicative of my current skill level, and start hounding venues for shows. It will happen this time, though. I need to establish as many revenue streams as possible because I need to make more money, and I don’t imagine seeing any sort of bump in salary for my day job. I might actually start trying to teach guitar or bass because that’s another way to make money with music. So if you have anyone who wants to learn the basics of guitar or bass, or even basic music theory as it relates to composition, send them my way.

Thanks to my Roman Holiday bandmates and our friends for helping make Saturday a triumphant return. If you’d like to see more from us, come see us in South Austin (FOR THE FIRST TIME PUBLICLY) at Third Base on March 15th. Hopefully there’s more to come in that department, and with MY music, and as a solo artist. We shall see.

It’s all happening!
TMS

ROMAN HOLIDAY IS BACK!

ROMAN HOLIDAY IS BACK!

This Saturday night at Hardtails in Georgetown! Practice tonight…hope I remember the words to the tunes. It should be super fun, and the show will be great!

Peace and love…hope I see some of youse peoples this Saturday night!

TMS

Filling in this week!

Filling in this week!

First tonight (Monday 28th) filling in with Heavy Blue at a private party. We’ll see what happens with that. Then, this Saturday at Bar Louie on 6th Street, super excited to fill in with Capital Suspects (the band I recently quit for personal reasons). Looking forward to both.

Roman Holiday has a gig on February 16th at Hardtails in Georgetown. I’m very excited about that one, too, although I have to admit, right now I’m looking forward to rehearsals for that one more because I miss my bandmates.

No news on the artistic front – no new songs or anything (though I feel like some are coming – that’s a good feeling). I’m just happy to get out and play some shows. Come rock out with me!

TMS

2013: The Year Of Promise

2013: The Year Of Promise

SO…hello, faithful denizens of Schizoland. I appreciate the time you give to this blog. I know I don’t demand much of you because I almost never write here. I think this year will be the year that changes that. Recording my feelings about my life as a musician on a regular basis will give me some stability and perhaps even a little discipline.
A few major happenings in my life as a musician…I haven’t been gigging at all since I left Capital Suspects. Roman Holiday had literally one show after August, which really rocked. The good part about all this is that there has been a lot of turmoil in other aspects of my life, so having nothing going on in music land was very timely.

So on to 2013…”The Year Of Promise”

Roman Holiday WILL be coming back in 2013 so long as Mr. Ned still wants to do it (I already know Mr. Lee is most certainly in). In addition to that, there exists potential for a few DEADLY power trios involving your humble servant (me) coming to rip your local venue apart. Most likely at least one will involve some really great rocking music. I’m also finally going to get my acoustic act going after 10 years of talking about it. I’m dubbing it “The Musical Schizo” and will hopefully be securing some sort of regular gigs at venues near my home (so my friends down here in South Austin can come see me). It may or may not be just me or me with someone else…but I guarantee it will be both diverse, familiar, and very fun.

I make no promises about original music this year outside of stuff with the power trios, because I’m converting the home studio into a bedroom for my boy. Hopefully by summer I’ll be able to have something to replace it squared away (perhaps an air-conditioned space in the garage).

So please root for me this year. I need all the help I can get to make “The Year Of Promise” be more than just promise. And thanks for reading, and Happy New Year!

TMS

So a Capital Suspect I am no more…

So a Capital Suspect I am no more…

I joined the band a few months ago, had some fun, but realized that life outside of music was growing too complicated to really have the energy for doing the job I expect myself to do, so I resigned over the weekend. Thanks to Greg, mAndy and Paul for the good times…and best of luck to all of them.

When I get more time to give a shit about music, I’m sure I’ll consider other options…but here’s to the next thing. And until next time…

TMS