I find it really funny re-reading old stuff I wrote on this blog. I’m always such a hopeful chap when it comes to producing and releasing my music. So many times I’ve been like, “NEW MUSIC IS COMING THIS YEAR” or “NEW VIDEOS ARE COMING”. And aside from a few outliers…nothing new ever comes. Not for over a decade. Not even since the beginning of this blog in 2000-whatever.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
In total, I’ve formally released THREE songs. And you can check them out, purchase, whatever on your favorite streaming service now and BandCamp under the artist “The Musical Schizo”.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
One of them is my recently-gussied-up tribute to Adam Schlesinger called “Never Really Saying Goodbye” which sounds like my version of a lost Fountains of Wayne song. Though in hindsight, I really should have harmonies\/more vocals in general on it. Missed opportunity. When I finally release an album, that’ll be the version that goes on there. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
There’s another potentially empty promise! Such lovely optimism. But anyway…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Another song is a relic from my mid-2000s burst of writing called “We Really Just Don’t Care” – it’s a song about the doubts live performing musicians have – especially those who play in cover bands that cater to an audience that’s mostly there to get drunk and hook up. The way you feel like wallpaper sometimes, that you really don’t have dedicated fans, but people who just happen to be there and who don’t even remember your name. This was conceived before I was ever in a band with an actual dedicated fanbase, so it doesn’t really apply to my life much now. (Thanks, “Chandler”! Love, The Bings)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
And the first one I released is one of my favorites and one of my most-recently-written songs (yeah, from 2015) – it’s called “Way Too Long of a While” and is very reflective and touching. It’s more folky than most of my music, but it has a lot of heart.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So that’s it – 17 years of blogging and promises, and THREE songs (and before you start asking about “It’s Gonna Be Me”, that doesn’t count because it was with Chandler and The Bings and it’s a cover). <\/p>\n\n\n\n
And then there’s my YouTube channel – which features multiple videos of me unboxing new gear I got and then never doing the promised follow-up video. Multiple comments from randos saying, “where’s the follow-up video?” I’m like – dude – look at the rest of my channel – I’ve got like 10 followers and no consistency on releasing things. So yeah, that always falls by the wayside. But maybe someday?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Between my music and my online content, I consider that a solid stream of empty promises.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
But something weird is happening with me – I’m starting to worry about posterity. About what I actually am contributing to the world musically as an artist and creator. I’m starting to think that having a bunch of crappy demos out instead of actually turning them into decently-recorded versions of themselves is pretty lazy. And saying I’m going to go into the features or do a deep dive on something later is foolhardy considering my inconsistency with this stuff.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
So to keep it simple, I have a new goal now – taking completed songs and turning them into versions I want to release. Then I will collect them in similarly-vibed albums, and then I will release them as albums. Do I have a timeline for this? HA HA HA HA – why would I do something silly like that and continue to make myself a big fat disappointment? But it will happen – let’s say before I’m dead. How about that?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
As for the YouTube content, I’d really like to figure out how to make some stuff I like without a whole lot of fuss, but that will take some planning and effort, which is unlikely. But maybe!<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Let the empty promises continue, and hope they are not as empty in the next 17ish years.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Also, I really do want to do more “Bathroom Schizo” videos, but this house doesn’t have any good bathrooms to record them in. Perhaps when I’ve moved to a better place, or maybe I’ll find a means for recording them in random bathrooms.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
(heh heh…even more empty promises)<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Peace be the journey!
TMS<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I find it really funny re-reading old stuff I wrote on this blog. I’m always such a hopeful chap when it comes to producing and releasing my music. So many times I’ve been like, “NEW MUSIC IS COMING THIS YEAR” or “NEW VIDEOS ARE COMING”. And aside from a few outliers…nothing new ever comes. Not for over a decade. Not even since the beginning of this blog in 2000-whatever. In total, I’ve formally released THREE songs. And you can check…<\/p>\n